RE: the downlow on cheating husbands
I can see how, my previous article coule be interpretted
as as downbeat, but really, it was just more a ramble, and
I also ended up talking about my health problems. I had major
surgery in March of this year. When I said I had a dry spell
prior to my surgery, it was not due to lack of offers. I declined
more advances than many people get. That may sound a bit
overreaching, but understand I worked quite a while as
the top waiter/bartender at the hippest club in town.
I think the whole swinging scene has changed my way of thinking
about marriage. I know so many swingers, socially. But
like I said in my original post, if its not against the rules,
its OK. My willingness to play with married men, is different
than that of the classic mistress. Bisexuality, and curiosity
has a whole different set of circumstances. While I feel
these philandering husbands are doing a disservice to
their relationship, I still categorize it differently
than say, a woman finding out a man she is involved with is
married. Both types of guys are players. I understand this.
But so am I. I may be developing a rush associated with these
"straight" married guys in front of me on their
knees. A crypto-psycho sexual power trip for me. To me it
is a validity of my masculinity. "I am so seductive,
I have a straight/married ex-College football player
giving me excellent sex" very greco.
In the case with my original friend, he really was the most
emotionally safe person for me to try sex again with. Originally
I demanded he ask his wife if it was OK. She knows of our history,
or at last his bisexual history. I feel he did me a huge favor
for my mental health agreeing to see me that night. But I
found out she does not know he continues to "play"
a bit on the side. very clinton-esque in his description.
If he said "I crashed on his couch after a few beers",
you could be pretty certain, that he received a blow job
after a few beers. But we wrapped up our liaison in a form
of sexual surrogacy. If we are to continue, it takes on a
way different air that it has currently. Of course he wants
to, because it really is that good with us.
The other guy, is married, but does not admit it on his profile.
BI-sex has been taking over his mind for about half a year.
A time frame I must doubt, given his enthusiasm. He could
be playing the part of BI-curious man, knowing a certain
level of men are attracted to that.
I also see men as different creatures than women. The fact
we can be "buddies" and fool around with little
real emotion is like an extension of masturbation. I know
plenty of BI guys, even some gay guys, that will not kiss.
Not interested. It must strictly be sex. Personally I feel
they do not know what they are missing out on.
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